i don't wanna give the best if you don't trust me, they make you loss, but they whom did that, not me! so let's see... i'll never regret what i've did and what i've decide.

give it a try perhaps it's not that bad, just change yourself so that you could give your all.....something i doubt i could do for now or maybe couldn't do it anymore because too much change in my heart, mind and soul

Conclusion about Kim Jaejoong in my fandom heart because of AnAn Magazine

Made up my mind..........
If Jaejoong appear on AnAn 1704 which will be released on 7/4, i don't wanna waste my money for buying that magazine :p
But, if he appear on AnAn 1705, released on 14/4, i have to buy 1 copy for me, i must to because Jae's sexy photos will be on that latest edition LOL
But...like i mentioned before, i'm such a possesive fangirl so i prefer he won't do half nude or even worse photoshoot.
I know it's just a job, and maybe you can called it 'art', but for me it's different...
I can't really answer if you ask me why because i'm a fan of Tamaki Hiroshi too, but seeing him at bath scene i can go 'YAY YAY YAY', and i can say that 'I WANT MORE!', although he has a flat ass LOL
In different case, i'd go crazy on Bae Young Jun after Hotelier and Winter Sonata, until i saw him showed his ass at Untold Scandal...oh gosh, i got 'ilfil' immediately >___< and then i couldn't force myself to watch April Snow which i knew had lot of bed scenes...but i still adore him ^^
So, after what i think it's a long thought, still, i couldn't classified which group Jaejoong belong to in my fandom heart. Because i want to see Jae's naked photo and i mean it, really mean it...but on the other hand i don't want Jae take such photoshoot or filming such movie. One conclusion i've got from those confusing feeling i had, Jae's position in my fandom heart is just higher from the other artists except for the other members of TVXQ

on arrangement, 2 fan's projects...YunJae and YooSu Fanfiction Book Project...are you ready to participate? *beneran musti ngais koin deh nih LOL*

being a fangirl *or fanwoman? LOL* is somehow fascinating and refreshing...but if you buried yourself in fandom deeper/deepest, be ready for reckoning every single coin on your pocket just to satisfied your needy of fandom love LOL it happened to me :p

my muse back ^^

yatta *dancing*
finally my muse back ^^

this past few days i tried to found my muse
but unfortunately they gone and made me blank
every time i tried and every single time too i just found the scene for the next few chapter that i didn't need for
ok, honestly, not that i didn't need it at all, coz that's the way i develop the story plot  
and actually i had the scene for this chapter in my mind, but the introduction sentences were not even emerge =___=

and then, before i had my lunch this noon, the sentences which during this time i had searching suddenly fulfill my mind yay ^___^
hope that i could continue to write it this night and before this weekend i can send it to my Beta

btw, the prologue for Finding Back His Soul had been beta too but i think i need to consulted it again with my Beta coz i want to retouch it before posted the beta version ^^

lg di RS jenguk anak temen yg kena virus dr nyamuk (nyamuk dr Amazon itu kek na)... minggu kmrn gw denger hal yg sama dr kenalan lain... makin byk yg aneh2 nih...

Trapped

It was me who loves dreaming
It was me who never get enough of you
It was me who always cause you pain
Even if I knew it would hurt you, I still did it...

It was you who always give me support
It was you who would be my happiness
It was you who never complaint about me
Even if you felt that pain, you still smile...

My egoism trapped you in my arm
Your love trapped me in your heart
Could this context everlasting?

remember my very first fanfic in English?

the title was ---> The Fate That Bring Them Together : An Angel Voice
i just do a little revised on it and post it in my LJ 2 days ago (this is the link)
i do that revised coz didn't satisfied with it for some reason, i just felt that something was missing. and i always thought of that fic need a sequel but i don't think i can make it good
so for the revised version i just add a final touch which i think a little better, though i still feel that i need a lot lot lot of practice to make a good one

and for my first fanfic which i write on Bahasa, please forgive me guys coz i still not finished it yet
i do writing on it, but just couldn't continue it until the end... and i need to translate it in English too... hope that i could make it as soon as possible.....

Jaejoong will appear in AnAn??? not confirm yet, but if it's really will happen, i hope he will not expose his lower body... i wish his pose just a little bit like Kimutaku's (still with his jeans put on)... i do want to see his sexy pose/expression, but really don't want to see him naked or pose just with his underwear *sigh* i'm such a possessive fan i think :p

sejak album Secret Code nyampe ampir tiap hari dengerim cd na....n jd makin cinta ama Jaejoong <333 Wasurenaide na bagus banget soalnya...berharap bisa denger karya dia yg terbaru secepatnya ^_____^

senangnyaaaaa lappie udah sembuh...udah bisa onlen lagi... (virus dahsyat akhirnya dikalahkan) ^______^