and JJ cried too during A-Nation... fighting boyz... we keep the faith for you

a rumor said he cried at SMT, and then i saw his picture some friends shared...i cried with you too my baby magnae T___T *hope to the end, AKTF*

being in love you'll find that all about them even if it's just a little thing will make you love them more... think and feel with your heart...it's a true love or just blind love that will be lost through the time... ~so in love just from seeing his handwriting~ ^^

Bad Habit

Everytime I went on travelling, just for fun or for business trip, i would have lack of sleep. And the reason was my bad habit, packed my luggage at the last moment.
Like last July when i had to attended National Meeting of my new workplace. Because i still had to go to the office till noon, and the departure time at afternoon, i considered the night before as the last moment for packing. And i packed my things until about 3:30am.
Or even i did not sleep at all.
And when i already in the plane, i treasure that 1-2 hours for sleeping...but sometimes i could not slept although i did so tired.

Sounds like i do like to torture my own body >_____<

my angelic Rocker Jae, really love his voice...lose him and i'll be on Maze *mirotic*

sexy Junsu on action...damn, the dance is so HOT *on fire*

YC sang My Girlfriend for her, holding her hand along the song, gave her a bucket of flowers, and then embraced her...she was sooo lucky *envious*

From a fan to Dong Bang Shin Ki's members

Watching JYJ 3hree Voices Thanksgiving Life Performance at Tokyo Dome, I’m so happy that they able to sing again in front of 200.000 fans…but at the same time I feel sad too because it’s just the 3 of them instead of 5. They look lonely because the 2 unable to be with them singing on the same stage.
As a fan, who just watched the performance from a video that another fan willingly shared, I can feel the happy and sad feeling mix together. JYJ, who have been through all that experience must be felt even more than what I’ve felt.
So, Jaejoong, Yoochun, Junsu, Yunho and Changmin, do your best, do as you whished to, we definitely will support everything you do.

gmn caranya nge-delete contact di FB ya? ada yg tau?

maag gw kambuh -_________-

YAY...Scut Hamsters ch.16 dah naik ^o^

so touched...considering to join this project http://community.livejournal.com/tohosomnia/323814.html AKTF!

haw come she make a report without checking it over and over again >.<

huaaaaaa... dengerin Stand By U by Tohoshinki bikin tambah melow T______T miss Changmin & Jaejoong so very much

*emo mode* don't know why but feeling blue, wanna take some time to relax, wanna make time to go faster =___=

Never Goodbye

Never Goodbye

They already talked about your break up
Then they saw your performance
They cry when the two of you cry
They even cry harder when the older of you said sorry
They talked about your break up even more depressing

I’m here at my busy world
Am I cry too?
Yeah of course I cry
But the tears not fall from my eyes
You all have filled my heart in the way I couldn’t even imagine before
That’s why the tears fall from my heart

I’m still stuck here in my busy schedule
Try to bunch my dream wings
So I can fly and reach the wonderland in my dreams
And you know what?
There are the five of you in my dreaming wonderland

Have I stop my dreaming because of your ‘break up’?
No. No. No. No. No.
And….. NO
Because in my heart, in my mind and in my soul there are still the five of you
Stick together as friend, as brother, as family (and perhaps as lover)
And I want to hold in to that faith…forever…

When is it the end of forever?
Maybe when I died?
Maybe when I got married and have a happy family?
Maybe just when I found another idol next month?
Next week, or even tomorrow?

One thing I know
The forever that I meant will be forever
And I believe in the five of you
I believe in your faith
The faith that will be forever in your heart, mind and soul
The same forever as I meant

The forever from forever of forever…

The five of you will be in one stage again…someday…

And… never goodbye…



A/N :
Made this on 17th June 2010 a few days after the JYJ Thanksgiving performance at Tokyo Dome, forgot to post it before.

@ ichal : info dr teman yg br balik dr Toraja, bln September di Toraja emang ada festival chal, sampe ada artis dr Jkt kata na, tp msh ga tau tgl tepatnya kapan, pondok2nya msh dibuat katanya ^^

@mba haiqa, nao, tantan, n the others : thank u for waiting me up at PS last night :) @qnuy, doko : sorry for the late, hope we'll meet soon

boarding now, i'm coming jkt :D

oh gosh, i have a goosebump...6 months ago somebody i don't really know made me a poetry...a love poetry...and i just read it today :D

oh gosh, he's so damn sexy... that long legs, that tanned skin, that not-so-muscle-but-build body, that cute eyes, that shy smile... love all of his *drolling over Changmin's pic at Chanel Fashion* :D

double job

I'm having double job since this monday.
Actually when i received the 2nd job, i've been in doubt because at the same day, an hour later, an offer came for a job in Bali.
It has been my dream to work at another city, but if i receive the offer i have to leave my 1st job...and i don't want to, because i still wanna try harder...
I hope that i'll be able to manage my time.

Oh, i'll fly to Jakarta on July 5th (i'll be attending a meeting, from my 2nd job)...
Hope that i can meet with you guys, although it's a rare occasion as the info i've got from my co-worker that our bigboss don't like it if his employee have another mission when they called for attended a meeting.


Btw, i'm so grateful that last night when i came home i didn't hit my niece's puppy. I almost cry when i found out that one of the puppies was under my car. Happyly that puppy haven't got a serious injury, just a little shock.

@ Naomi : hun, please give me your address, i've received the YunJae Antholgy's book and want to send it to you...btw, have you received my mail? reply asap yo ^___^

My Dream Wings

Perhaps i'm in the way to arrange my dream wings

The 1st step i already took when i leave my job for almost 10 years

The 2nd step i took about 2 weeks ago
Went for 4 days training and 1 day exam
And today i heard that i passed the exam
Finally the time to take the 3rd step arrived
 
But a friend of mine called
She told me about an opportunity
At Bali.....

I know the steps i already took it'll be a long way to create my dream wings
I know too if i take the opportunity maybe i cannot have my dream wings at all
But maybe i'll have another wings, a small one or maybe bigger than what i've dreamt

God, please give me wisdom to make a decision, for mine and my family's happiness

just posting chapter 1 of Finding Back His Soul (http://jyllchan.livejournal.com/2381.html) fiuuuh...a bit uneasy bcoz i cannot post the beta version... >.<

i watched Sunao ni Narenakute's BTS interview, and at 2nd minute was when i saw Jaejoong's potrait when he has just joined SM...so same even with his hairstyle =p

in the way to my grandma's grave, and i forgot to bring jacket and hat...it's already hot here >___<

Always Keep The Faith!

Deep voice which make me feel calm
But sometimes could be cool and strong or child-like 
The voice of the leader Jung 'U-know' Yunho

Sexy voice that i love so much especially when heard him talked
Just heard him and me will think all romantic moments
That voice belong to Park 'Micky' Yoochun

Husky voice which make me feel a bit sad
But at the same time feel the powerful energy and earnestly 
Kim 'Xiah' Junsu is the owner of that voice

Shrill and gruff, and me thought of freedom and wildness
Everytime i heard Wild Soul come from his voice
That is Shim 'Max' Changmin's voice

Clean but sometimes husky and next time full of power
But everytime me just see the beautiful memories
From Kim 'Hero' Jaejoong that beautiful voice come out

They have their own unique and I love each of them
But the unison of their voice had gave good music, great song
The unison of them had brought amazing performance

And now the unison will devided
Each of them will walk their own way
Each of them will reach their own dreams

Me watching from the far
Hope for the best for each of them
Hope for the unison will return to coalescing
Hope till the end
Always keep the faith


just read about Tohoshinki inactivity, and i really feel sad about it
although i've prepared that that situation will come soon
and i've prepared to support their solo activities
but still the news sadden me, feel like crying now T____T

Feeling Blue

This morning on the way to the church, i listen to Tohoshinki 3rd Japanese Album, 'T'.
And when i heard their 'Forever Love' in acapella version suddenly i feel so sad and nearly crying. I really love their unison especially in acapella...and that is the first reason i love them so much.

This sadden me more. And i couldn't hold the tears anymore.
What Max-san wrote on his Twitter is really true.....

"Things that will be better if you know, things that won't hurt you if you don't know..."

We, fans, need the truth.
We, fans, hurt from all knavery that had been happened.

But we, fans, still will support their choice, no matter what.
We still keep our faith on the boys.

AnAn Magazine, CDJapan Preorder SOLD OUT!

Amazing!
It's on April 1st, CDJapan open the preorder for AnAn Magazine with Jaejoong at the cover, and i received the notification just around 19:00pm, and now, about 2 hours after i arrived at home, 01:56am at April 2nd, the preorder was SOLD OUT!
Again, the power of Dong Bang Shin Ki boys proved it.

Source : CDJapan

i had say that i've made up my mind that i don't wanna buy AnAn if Jae's appear on 1704 edition......buuuut, he is sooooo tempting, sooooo sexy in that magazine, eventhough he still on his pants. ottokajo, ottokajo, i wanna buy iiiiiit >____< why is he must so sexyyyyyy *drolling*

i don't wanna give the best if you don't trust me, they make you loss, but they whom did that, not me! so let's see... i'll never regret what i've did and what i've decide.

give it a try perhaps it's not that bad, just change yourself so that you could give your all.....something i doubt i could do for now or maybe couldn't do it anymore because too much change in my heart, mind and soul

Conclusion about Kim Jaejoong in my fandom heart because of AnAn Magazine

Made up my mind..........
If Jaejoong appear on AnAn 1704 which will be released on 7/4, i don't wanna waste my money for buying that magazine :p
But, if he appear on AnAn 1705, released on 14/4, i have to buy 1 copy for me, i must to because Jae's sexy photos will be on that latest edition LOL
But...like i mentioned before, i'm such a possesive fangirl so i prefer he won't do half nude or even worse photoshoot.
I know it's just a job, and maybe you can called it 'art', but for me it's different...
I can't really answer if you ask me why because i'm a fan of Tamaki Hiroshi too, but seeing him at bath scene i can go 'YAY YAY YAY', and i can say that 'I WANT MORE!', although he has a flat ass LOL
In different case, i'd go crazy on Bae Young Jun after Hotelier and Winter Sonata, until i saw him showed his ass at Untold Scandal...oh gosh, i got 'ilfil' immediately >___< and then i couldn't force myself to watch April Snow which i knew had lot of bed scenes...but i still adore him ^^
So, after what i think it's a long thought, still, i couldn't classified which group Jaejoong belong to in my fandom heart. Because i want to see Jae's naked photo and i mean it, really mean it...but on the other hand i don't want Jae take such photoshoot or filming such movie. One conclusion i've got from those confusing feeling i had, Jae's position in my fandom heart is just higher from the other artists except for the other members of TVXQ

on arrangement, 2 fan's projects...YunJae and YooSu Fanfiction Book Project...are you ready to participate? *beneran musti ngais koin deh nih LOL*

being a fangirl *or fanwoman? LOL* is somehow fascinating and refreshing...but if you buried yourself in fandom deeper/deepest, be ready for reckoning every single coin on your pocket just to satisfied your needy of fandom love LOL it happened to me :p

my muse back ^^

yatta *dancing*
finally my muse back ^^

this past few days i tried to found my muse
but unfortunately they gone and made me blank
every time i tried and every single time too i just found the scene for the next few chapter that i didn't need for
ok, honestly, not that i didn't need it at all, coz that's the way i develop the story plot  
and actually i had the scene for this chapter in my mind, but the introduction sentences were not even emerge =___=

and then, before i had my lunch this noon, the sentences which during this time i had searching suddenly fulfill my mind yay ^___^
hope that i could continue to write it this night and before this weekend i can send it to my Beta

btw, the prologue for Finding Back His Soul had been beta too but i think i need to consulted it again with my Beta coz i want to retouch it before posted the beta version ^^

lg di RS jenguk anak temen yg kena virus dr nyamuk (nyamuk dr Amazon itu kek na)... minggu kmrn gw denger hal yg sama dr kenalan lain... makin byk yg aneh2 nih...

Trapped

It was me who loves dreaming
It was me who never get enough of you
It was me who always cause you pain
Even if I knew it would hurt you, I still did it...

It was you who always give me support
It was you who would be my happiness
It was you who never complaint about me
Even if you felt that pain, you still smile...

My egoism trapped you in my arm
Your love trapped me in your heart
Could this context everlasting?

remember my very first fanfic in English?

the title was ---> The Fate That Bring Them Together : An Angel Voice
i just do a little revised on it and post it in my LJ 2 days ago (this is the link)
i do that revised coz didn't satisfied with it for some reason, i just felt that something was missing. and i always thought of that fic need a sequel but i don't think i can make it good
so for the revised version i just add a final touch which i think a little better, though i still feel that i need a lot lot lot of practice to make a good one

and for my first fanfic which i write on Bahasa, please forgive me guys coz i still not finished it yet
i do writing on it, but just couldn't continue it until the end... and i need to translate it in English too... hope that i could make it as soon as possible.....

Jaejoong will appear in AnAn??? not confirm yet, but if it's really will happen, i hope he will not expose his lower body... i wish his pose just a little bit like Kimutaku's (still with his jeans put on)... i do want to see his sexy pose/expression, but really don't want to see him naked or pose just with his underwear *sigh* i'm such a possessive fan i think :p

sejak album Secret Code nyampe ampir tiap hari dengerim cd na....n jd makin cinta ama Jaejoong <333 Wasurenaide na bagus banget soalnya...berharap bisa denger karya dia yg terbaru secepatnya ^_____^

senangnyaaaaa lappie udah sembuh...udah bisa onlen lagi... (virus dahsyat akhirnya dikalahkan) ^______^

NEED HELP : @shira-chan, mau mesen YunJae Anthology juga ga? klo mau, gw nitip y...biar hemat ongkir soal na :p *digeplak, datang2 lgs minta tolong*

wanna say Happy Valentine's Day to all of you *kisses and hugs for u* and to those whom celebrate Chinese' New Year...Gong Xi Fat Choi, Xin Nien Guai Le, Wang Si Ru Yi... :) *smg gw ga salah nulis na :p*

just read Dog and Butterfly...

...aahhh it's so painful, i almost cry ~.~

feel sorry for them, especially Jae who loved Junsu very much, but at least Yunho's stick beside him. feel proud of Yunho's strong love. coz im a YunJae fan, so i really love this side of Yunho ^^

im proud of Yoochun too, his love is incredibly amazed me, for Jae and for Junsu.
n Junsu, he is just too far away but finally Yoochun can capture his heart n love <3
somehow i feel like Junsu's fall for Yoochun at the first time but couldn't see through his heart >.< so i just follow the line :p

this is the first fic from Belle i've read (except for 1 oneshot of YooSu n 1 drabble of YooMin)...n im anticipating for another story, will brb for another one ^__~

btw i forgot to tell, beside the painful feeling, on the other hand it's so sweet too...i just couldn't help but want to read it again n again LOL

~download the fanfic (PDF file) from LiveJournal

akhirnya selesai jg layout mp...walopun blm sesuai dgn harapan, kudu belajar lagi yg banyak nih :D

*UNDER CONSTRUCTION* aarrgh...ga tidur2 gara ngerjain layout tp ga bisa jd sesuai yg gw mau T_____T *UNDER CONSTRUCTION*